Limitless Possibilities
"I let go of what was and accept what is to prepare for the limitless possiblities of what will be."
~ Journal entry of May 30, 2005.
As I was riding to work the other day, these words popped into my head. I find it interesting that I penned these words in my journal over a year ago and they came back to my mind verbatim. I believe that there is a connection between our mind and body in respect to illness and that disease has an emotional element.
I have struggled a lot with skin issues since I was burned. First it was hives; it all started the day that I sat down to write my statement to Bill to be read at the criminal sentencing. I sat for hours and wrote my statement. Within minutes of completing the statement, I was covered in hives. This began a problem that lasted well over a year. I had to take Benedryl every night or I woke up covered in hives on my legs. To this day, I still will get a few scattered hives when I feel stressed.
Another chronic problem that I have developed is Eczema. It is a burning itch that can be maddening at times. I have to use various ointments and creams to keep it in check. It used to be on my legs, chest, back, elbows and hands but it has now concentrated mainly on my hands. They itch and burn constantly. I have tried so many creams and ointments but nothing really begins to get rid of the problem.
I have finally begun to consider the emotional element to the eczema (a dis-ease). Why my hands? I have burns all over my body. Why has the maddening itch on my hands never improved? This was the question on my mind the other day on my way to work. I thought of the fact that our hands hold and have the ability to grasp onto things. I considered the idea that I am still holding onto some of the pain and fear from the attack. As I write these words, my heart hurts and it signals to me that there is truth here. I am obviously still in the process of letting go. What do I still want to hang on to? To what purpose does it serve? I don't have an answer to these questions today. They will come when I am ready. They always have... but not until I am ready to know. Until then, I will remember the truth that I penned over a year ago. I am letting go of what was and accepting what is in preparation for the limitless possibilities of what will be~ Amen
~ Journal entry of May 30, 2005.
As I was riding to work the other day, these words popped into my head. I find it interesting that I penned these words in my journal over a year ago and they came back to my mind verbatim. I believe that there is a connection between our mind and body in respect to illness and that disease has an emotional element.
I have struggled a lot with skin issues since I was burned. First it was hives; it all started the day that I sat down to write my statement to Bill to be read at the criminal sentencing. I sat for hours and wrote my statement. Within minutes of completing the statement, I was covered in hives. This began a problem that lasted well over a year. I had to take Benedryl every night or I woke up covered in hives on my legs. To this day, I still will get a few scattered hives when I feel stressed.
Another chronic problem that I have developed is Eczema. It is a burning itch that can be maddening at times. I have to use various ointments and creams to keep it in check. It used to be on my legs, chest, back, elbows and hands but it has now concentrated mainly on my hands. They itch and burn constantly. I have tried so many creams and ointments but nothing really begins to get rid of the problem.
I have finally begun to consider the emotional element to the eczema (a dis-ease). Why my hands? I have burns all over my body. Why has the maddening itch on my hands never improved? This was the question on my mind the other day on my way to work. I thought of the fact that our hands hold and have the ability to grasp onto things. I considered the idea that I am still holding onto some of the pain and fear from the attack. As I write these words, my heart hurts and it signals to me that there is truth here. I am obviously still in the process of letting go. What do I still want to hang on to? To what purpose does it serve? I don't have an answer to these questions today. They will come when I am ready. They always have... but not until I am ready to know. Until then, I will remember the truth that I penned over a year ago. I am letting go of what was and accepting what is in preparation for the limitless possibilities of what will be~ Amen
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