The Teachable Place
"The layers upon layers of God denial that encrust most souls in physical form cannot be removed all at once as in a surgical procedure. They require the gradual wearing away of resistance through experience...
Be patient, then, and allow yourselves to see the eroding of the layer upon layer of defense that exists in the human cycles. You will see that what is thought of as dire straits is an opportunity to learn. ~ Emmanuel's Book
I've been struggling lately. I have had headaches more days than not since I was 5 years old. Before the attack, I had reached a point where I rarely had a headache and believed that I had finally found the secret to wellness in this area. However, recently the crushing headaches have returned. And the long standing issues that I have with digestive woes are worse than ever. Even my old friends, the hives, have revisited recently. In other words, I feel like a mess. I have said before that I believe that our physical issues have an emotional connection. Well it is pretty obvious to me that my "stuff" is wreaking havoc on my body. I even recently lost my cool at work. I haven't felt that angry and frustrated with "everyday life" in a very long time. I must confess that I ended up feeling very disappointed in myself. I thought that I had learned what is really important. I thought that I had made more progress in this journey of Life. But even as I write these words, I realize how foolish they sound. If I had learned all that I came to learn, I wouldn't need to be here anymore. And so, once again, I am in the "teachable place". That vulnerable place that we visit with the sign on the door of our heart that says, "I'm ready to hear a new word. Yes, I am ready to learn."
No one escapes pain in this life. We have all reacted to that pain by building defenses- layers and layers of protection around our heart in hopes of avoiding more pain. For each of us, these layers served a purpose at one time or we wouldn't have developed them. However, over time these walls that once served us ultimately separate us from the very things that we want so desperately. The peace, joy and intimate connection that we are seeking is out of reach because our hearts are unavailable to receive them. The layers that encrust our hearts prevent us from experiencing the things that we want the most. It is only when we feel the discomfort of our walls that we allow them to crumble. They do not all fall down at once. They are worn away by our experiences of disappointment. Although it hurts to see that we are not where we want to be, it is at that very moment that we are moving toward that which we seek. We are in the process of transformation because we are letting go of our defenses and becoming more of who we truly are.
So, today, I will celebrate the awareness of my short-comings. If I had never seen them, I would not be able to let them go. I will thank the layers that protected me when I needed them and then I will say goodbye as they slowly crumble away.
Be patient, then, and allow yourselves to see the eroding of the layer upon layer of defense that exists in the human cycles. You will see that what is thought of as dire straits is an opportunity to learn. ~ Emmanuel's Book
I've been struggling lately. I have had headaches more days than not since I was 5 years old. Before the attack, I had reached a point where I rarely had a headache and believed that I had finally found the secret to wellness in this area. However, recently the crushing headaches have returned. And the long standing issues that I have with digestive woes are worse than ever. Even my old friends, the hives, have revisited recently. In other words, I feel like a mess. I have said before that I believe that our physical issues have an emotional connection. Well it is pretty obvious to me that my "stuff" is wreaking havoc on my body. I even recently lost my cool at work. I haven't felt that angry and frustrated with "everyday life" in a very long time. I must confess that I ended up feeling very disappointed in myself. I thought that I had learned what is really important. I thought that I had made more progress in this journey of Life. But even as I write these words, I realize how foolish they sound. If I had learned all that I came to learn, I wouldn't need to be here anymore. And so, once again, I am in the "teachable place". That vulnerable place that we visit with the sign on the door of our heart that says, "I'm ready to hear a new word. Yes, I am ready to learn."
No one escapes pain in this life. We have all reacted to that pain by building defenses- layers and layers of protection around our heart in hopes of avoiding more pain. For each of us, these layers served a purpose at one time or we wouldn't have developed them. However, over time these walls that once served us ultimately separate us from the very things that we want so desperately. The peace, joy and intimate connection that we are seeking is out of reach because our hearts are unavailable to receive them. The layers that encrust our hearts prevent us from experiencing the things that we want the most. It is only when we feel the discomfort of our walls that we allow them to crumble. They do not all fall down at once. They are worn away by our experiences of disappointment. Although it hurts to see that we are not where we want to be, it is at that very moment that we are moving toward that which we seek. We are in the process of transformation because we are letting go of our defenses and becoming more of who we truly are.
So, today, I will celebrate the awareness of my short-comings. If I had never seen them, I would not be able to let them go. I will thank the layers that protected me when I needed them and then I will say goodbye as they slowly crumble away.
posted by Becky Spellman Waltz at 11:50 AM
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